Confusions.

What i do: 
My eyes i shut,  I shut them not to see your smile. I shut them not to see your eyes, sweet and soft. 

But then:

How do i shut my heart up, from beating thr rhythm of your name? How do i stop it from skipping beats at your sight? How do i make it forget the thrill? The warmth it once felt? How do i make it beat for another?

And:

I don’t wonna miss you. But my mind roams in memory of sweet, wet kisses at twilight.  And warm caresses at the heart of the night, of tight hugs and stolen shy glances. 

Then :

 My body aches. Waiting to awake by your warm masculine body. My neck the back of my neck it yearns for that tickle. And try back that relating massage. My ears can’t wait to hear the honey smooth voice. 

When:

 I should be moving on with life. And forgetting i was to be your wife, before my beautiful dream turned into nightmare.  I should be looking for he who deserves me. 

Truth:

Is I’ll miss you, i miss you and maybe always will. I loved you; still do and probably always will. Thats why goodbye ain’t an option. All am left with are memories of the sweet and sour moments yet even those fade away faster than stars in a clouded sky.